1. I wasn't going to post a "before" pic of me on here simply because of how embarassed I am about my body. But then, this morning I thought to myself that the only people who are going to be following this blog right now are people I sent a link to because I trust them. These are friends who love me for me, and won't be too harsh to judge. Also, by posting a pic of me online, it is daily motivation to look at how discusting I look, and knowing that other people will have seen my pic, I feel I owe it to them to change.
2. I am SO picky about men. Looks DO matter. And I will be honest and be the first one out there to say I don't to date an overweight guy. So whyyyy would a guy want to date me, an overweight girl? That's being kind of a hypocrite. Besides, even if there was some ripped, good looking guy out there who for some reason ever wanted to be with me, I would forever feel uncomfortable being bigger than him and going out knowing people are thinking "Is he really with her?"
3. I am TOO pretty for this body, and TOO young for this body! This body I have right now doesn't belong to me, it's not mine. I feel like a girl with pretty hair and a pretty face stuck inside a fat suit. For the past couple of years I've chalked up my confidence to the fact that I've got a pretty face (yes, I can actually admit that) and an awesome personality. But I deserve to be the whole package, not just some. I want to be 100% awesome, all over.
4. My mom pointed out a good reason why I never want to work out, or go walking. I said it's because I work 8-6 everyday and usually stay a little late after work - therefor not getting home until 6:30-7. When I come home, I like to have dinner and crash on the couch. This is after sitting in an office desk all day. WOW - am I active or WHAT?!
Anyways - my mom asked me how over weight am I. I told her, since my senior year of high school I have put on 100 lbs. She pointed out to me that the big tubs of cat sand we get every week are 35 lbs. each. She told me 2 of those are 70. If anyone has a cat and has ever bought the BIG container of cat sand, you know how friggin' heavy these bad boys are. Mom told me to picture hold 2 of those at once. That's 70 lbs....not even 100. Physically holding two of those is weight I have gained over the past years, and then some! GROSS. When it was put into a visual like that, I immediately understood why I have trouble working out. It's like carrying big containers of cat sand with me everywhere! No wonder I can't move!
Jessica Simpson is still my idol, and one day....yes, one day I will look like this!
Heck, I think Jessica Simpson herself wants to look like this! (again)
Stay tuned for my post tonight, when I will post my "before" pic of my body that I took this morning. If people didn't know me they might say "awww....she's expecting!". It seriously looks like a pic an expecting mother takes in the mirror. Oh boy, can't wait to see some change!
Also tonight - with my blob pic I will post what I ate today. It was hard because mom packed a lunch for me based on what we already have in the house. Haven't gone "diet" shopping yet.
After work I am going to go check out the Weight Watchers center I use to go to - hopefully it is still there!
Later losers! ;)